Fog

Today I was driving to church and the fog was so dense, I could barely see the car in front of me let alone the road ahead. I had driven the same road before so I could predict where the exit was on the highway without needing to see the exit sign. While I was driving I was just so thankful I have been on this road before. If I was in a new town trying to follow someone's directions I would be so lost! The signs for roads were visible only after I was passing them.

Today at church we talked about taking risks and stepping out in faith. Doing things just because God asks us is so much harder when we can't see the road or the street signs. Sometimes stepping out in faith is like driving in fog. We can see a little bit of road directly in front of us and we can choose to follow the tail lights of a car leading the way, but it makes us feel nervous in unfamiliar areas.

I feel like I am driving in a fog right now with my future.  Thankfully God is the car in front of me and I am turning when God turns and braking when I see the tail lights ahead of me brake. Just because I know he is in front of me does not mean that I am not scared. I can't see the future or where I will end up. I was obedient to apply to law school when God asked me to, but now I have to wait weeks for any kind of answer. I have no idea how I will pay for law school or even my internship that begins in two months.

All I can do is follow the lights in front of me. I can't pass and try and lead the way (like I usually try to do) because then I will really be lost. God promises to take care of us on our journey "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6

God never says that the weather will always be sunny or a complete storm will fall on us, sometimes we are just in a fog. God is reminding us that he is in control and as long as we keep our eyes on him he will lead us to where we need to be, even if that is not where we originally thought the journey was taking us.